Usefull Conflict and Attitudes

I think conflict and problems can be a good thing if it's looked at in the eyes of wisdom. In the middle of a conflict it will reveal hidden things in your heart that you do a good job covering up in everyday. Some of us are blinded and don't even see it, a good example would be legalistic Christians; they don't see how hurtful and unhelpful they are putting heavy loads of condemnation on you.

Buried in the heart are some attitudes that can surface when things go wrong. They may even be attitudes that shock us, especially in anger to rage we can become a different person it seems. For the most part I see everyone nearby trying to stay calm and collected, like they have it together. But I know there have to be some people having a war raging in their heart and inward calamity eating them alive even though they don't show it. I know because I used to wear a face of prideful self protection, sometimes I still do.

I've been learning for a while that the things in my heart that are especially bad are coming out during a crisis and conflict. My attitude can get ugly and I have an inner pity party. The difference is that now I am acknowledging the wicked motives of my heart, before I let them consume me, and I give it to God the only way I know how. I ask Him to take it out of my heart.

You don't see the wicked attitude of the heart everyday. Someone can seem so wonderful but if you see them get into a problem that offends them, you will see what's buried in their heart also. Because out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks.

Watch some people handle a car. Road rage, fits of rage, and childish fits with profanity. Watch someone get ripped off and plan to get vengeance in sick ways.

The more I learn about myself the more I learn how long-suffering God really is with me. I could never put up with someone like myself and for some reason God see's me as worth it and he oversees all these troubles and see's the perfect man He is making me. The goodness of God is so far above my head.

I don't want to be a hypocrite and double-minded, but I am sometimes. I have nobody to blame but myself, but thanks be to God who will lead me in triumph through Christ as long as I obey Him.

If I don't admit that I do wrong in some areas that I know I do because I feel justified by the feeling, then I will never ever change.